Old

Old isn’t a condition; it’s a phase. At least that’s what I tell myself each time I dare to look in the mirror, or some body part decides to go on vacation without so much as a warning. I’ve written in this blog about the art of growing old. It is an art, to be sure, and some folks paint a much better picture than others. The old couple I wrote about in Aging Takes Time is an actual couple CeCe and I would see on occasion. They reminded us of the future we longed to share that is now relegated to a misty notion of the imagination. But the love is still there in all its glory.

Being old is not a sentence; it’s a book. Truth be told, it’s a book I used to imagine when I was very young. Mostly because of my granddad. He would expound on his memories from when he was young in the 1800s. His stories were pure gold; woven through carefully crafted words from the visions in his mind that made his eyes light up like an old dusty hurricane lamp brought to life after a long period of darkness.

As we age, there is much we hold in our hearts. We may all live a life, but we each capture it in different ways; from different angles. It’s as if we’re cameras all pointing to the same vanishing point on the horizon from different perspectives. We see the same things, but differently; we mold our future from the way we envision the world.

So why am I bringing up age again? Well, because I am getting older. And since the days for new love or family are behind me now, all I see on the horizon is that vanishing point in the distance. So I do my best to be bold; to keep moving forward with a spring in my step and assurances in my heart that each sunrise will be more beautiful than the one before. I’m sold on the idea – the vision – that life is what we make of it. To date, I’ve woven a bright tapestry filled with eclectic experiences, devoted friendships, deep and transformative love, and memories from faraway places that have forever cemented in my heart and mind the strength and beauty of a united world.

I must concede that the advent and proliferation of technologies has been somewhat of a cold comfort. It concerns me when we, as sentient beings, choose to give up some of our intrinsic talents and capabilities to a machine or generative AI for the sake of speed, convenience or some form of financial or logistical advantage. Speed and convenience are justifiable and worthwhile traits when AI is aimed at serving those needs that cater to the well-being and safety of humanity. But we should not fold our cards just yet and relinquish our ability for creativity, exploration or interpersonal communications. There is much to be appreciated from creations brought about from a sense of passion, longing, pain or joy. They herald the power of human ingenuity and the resiliency of the human spirit. All that we have created – machine or otherwise – has found its way to today through the efforts, growth and determination of those who were once young and who are now old. It’s a wonderful attribute filled with endless possibilities. If you ever find yourself around someone old, take the time to chat with them for a spell. If you take a moment to be receptive, you’ll soon discover that within that old carapace with frosted hair and eager eyes lies the key to immortality.

2 responses to “Old”


  1. Firstly, thank you for the memories. That is one of the assets and beauty of aging. We make them, store them, cherish them, and only understand their value in the youth of our old age.  Your remembrance of spending time with your grandfather is priceless and deeply resonates with me.   I had a wonderful maternal grandmother. At five years of age, all I wanted was to be her. Perhaps because she didn’t have to get up early in the morning to go to school. She was magical. The unicorn of today’s culture.  I always found so much calmness and peace in the creases of her face and serene eyes. An equanimity about her, the right answers, and perfect solutions to resolve the troubles of my small world.  In retrospect, it was nothing more than life experience she was so lovingly sharing with me. A treasure trove conceived by age and living. I did not understand, then, I was her apprentice. Aging is an interesting metamorphic process. As you said, Frank, we have more past than present, and the runway is much shorter. But in age, there is still an abundance of growth to be found. I think  there is a freedom only achieved with age. It is what helps crytalize our priorities, to be more accepting of ourselves, and more conscious of time.The richness and opportunities we have to leave a lasting impact on the world by passing our knowledge, values, and life experiences to future generations are not achieved by the young. To quote your line, “If you ever find yourself around someone old, take the time to chat with them for a spell. If you take a moment to be receptive, you’ll soon discover that within that old carapace with frosted hair and eager eyes lies the key to immortality.” Amen!

    1. Maria – thank you for that beautiful encapsulation; I could not have written it better myself. People who are old are the living embodiment of time travel. We try to study the past and learn from it, yet they lived it. They are keenly aware of the nuances of those long forgotten experiences because they carry the echoes of those memories as part of their DNA. To not wish to spend time with someone who has already shouldered the vast majority of their life is to treat the past with condescension; it’s showing the height of disrespect by minimizing all of the achievements, losses, loves, fears, and triumphs that are at the core of the human experience. We all create our own story, and what a marvelous read it is. To push that off without a thread of appreciation or at least a thinly veiled acknowledgement is to deny our own humanity. The older generation deserves to be recognized and thanked for the seeds of imagination, passion, desire, love, curiosity, and determination they sowed in our hearts all those years ago. For theirs is the gift of history; ours is the gift of time. As a sign in an old monastery in Rome admonishes all who enter to view the bones of the most pious of monks: What you are now, we once were. What we are now, you shall soon become. Thank you for your wonderful insights, and a loving nod to our grandparents – the earliest purveyors of magic.

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